It's Been Awhile...

Hey everyone! Sorry for the blogging hiatus, it's been one crazy week around here. I thought I would just summarize our week in little points.

We went to the park on Tuesday for our first official play date with my new play group I started! We had a blast despite it being really chilly. Addi was a big fan of the brownies.

On Wednesday, we ran some errands. We got our squeaky shoes in that I ordered last week and Addi adores them. She was running all over the house just to listen to them. I might tape down the squeaker when were in public. Haha.

We also got these little strawberry cake things at Walmart. They are only 100 calories and they are pretty good! Addi liked them and she's not a big fan of cake or frosting.

Thursday we didn't do a whole lot. Addi decided she wanted to try and walk in my shoes. Hilarious until she screamed because she was so frustrated they wouldn't stay on.


I stayed up way to late on Thursday night working on orders. My little shop has really been busy here lately and I am so happy. I love creating these clothes so much and when other people buy them it just brings me such joy. So thank you. :)

So that brings us to today. I will be honest, today was one of the worst days I've ever had. I know that sounds dramatic, and there could be much worse things to happen, but today was truly a challenge. I don't know how many times I prayed for Satan to get away from me, or how many times I prayed for patience. To start off, Addi threw my phone in the toilet last night and now it's done. Frustrating, but not THAT big of a deal. This morning however, Addi was in one of the worst moods of her life. In fact, this is the worst behaved she has ever been. I felt so bad for her because she's cutting teeth right now (2 more just came in today!) but at the same time it's really hard to keep it together when she is literally screaming and throwing fits. She was a lot better after I gave her some Tylenol, so we've been keeping her on that most of the day. After her nap she was much more pleasant also. We went to her 18 month checkup this afternoon and we found out that Addi has a slight heart murmur. I am crying while I write this because Addi has always been perfectly healthy, and the doctor reassured me over and over that it really wasn't that big of a deal, but it terrifies me. This week I found out that one of the doctors I used to work for just found out that his baby girl has a rare and very dangerous genetic disease and there aren't many treatment options available. Devastating and truly heartbreaking news. I know that Satan was playing on my emotions and causing fear to overtake me since I found out about that baby. Just wondering if that was going to happen to Addi or one of our future children. And then today, I just had to constantly push it away. And not that those things compare AT ALL, I'm just saying I was already being overly worried and sensitive. On a lighter note about the heart murmur, our doctor truly was not that worried about it. He saw me start to tear up and he said, "I probably shouldn't have told you that, it's really not that big of a deal." I just had to laugh...and then cry. He also told me that Addi has another issue that we are treating at the moment. I'm not going to say what it is, because it's kinda TMI, but it was just another thing to fear. He was also concerned that with a couple weeks of medicine it would be resolved. Anyways, so of course I'm freaking out about these things he has just told me and I had NO means to call and talk to Josh. Josh is my voice of reason and a constant calming force. Anytime I get worried or nervous, Josh "talks me down from the ledge." I sent him an email when I got home and told him what the doc told me, then put I'M ABOUT TO HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN. Halfway joking. :) He quickly responded with, I'm about to come home. Josh has been insanely busy too so it really meant a lot that he left work to come home and be with me. Such a good husband. Anyways, so now I am good, I realize that worse things could be wrong and I just have to remind myself not to let fear control me, which is hard.

To anyone still reading, I applaud you for making it through that rambling and depressing paragraph. You deserve an award.

Now onto some happier pictures.





If you're wondering why I put that last picture in, it's because Josh asked if there was anything I needed while he went out to get Addi's medicine, I wrote back, a extra large cheese pizza. Halfway joking since we are on diets, but I think he knew I needed this! Haha.

Hope y'all had a great week and a great weekend!